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Weeks like this make me want to turn in my resignation from the whole parenting gig. When I realize that cleaning up vomit is not my strong suit, when I can’t figure out how to comfort a distressed kid, when I look at the mounds of dirty laundry that never seems to go away, I just want to turn in my mom card and go back to less complicated calling like synchronized swimming or bee keeping.
Most of the time, I think there’s gotta be someone out there who could do a better job raising my children than myself. Often, I feel like I’m holding things together as well as reused scotch tape. I wonder how long it will be before everyone discovers that I’m really just a thirteen-year-old girl masquerading around in a thirty-something-year-old body, and that I don’t really know what I’m doing. Surely when they learn this, they’ll demand that I turn in my mom card.
But then I remember that God entrusted those two girls to me. ME, not the super crafty mom, not the mom that has her spice rack in alphabetical order, not the mom that seems to know how to handle every emotional situation with the wisdom of a child psychologist… Just me.
So, even though my brain is only partially functional most days, I faint at the sight of needles, I’m totally impatient and I have the attention span of a moth, God still entrusts me to the care and keeping of The Eldest and The Youngest.
Wow. What was He thinking?
So, I guess I’ll hang on to my mom card for now. Maybe, just maybe, I’m equipped to handle this job after all.
Besides, Mother’s Day is Sunday. 😉
What keeps you from giving up on the parenting gig?
Faith Like Mustard 
Honestly? Knowing that no one else will do it. 😛
I have often wondered how someone who feels like she is 12, can actually be 36 and have 4 kids. I am not a puke cleaner either. I have been known to pay other people to do it for me.
Well, I’m glad I’m not alone! 🙂
This made me laugh (synchronized swimming & bee keeping) and shake my head yes, Yes, YES. I hear you. Feel the same way sometimes. Great post! Thanks for the reminder that God gave my kids to ME. Poor kids. 😉
-FringeGirl
Okay, I admit that synchronized swimming might be just as tough as parenting…at least for someone as uncoordinated as me!
Failure isn’t really a choice in mothering, is it? Lol.
*insert giant sigh here*
I second that *sigh*
I am with you at times.
“God doesn’t call the qualified. He qualifies the called.”
Be Blessed.
~Tiffany
I love that saying. It’s so true!
My “Mom Card” is crumbled, taped together and barely legible in some spots but I’m still holding on to it. I don’t give up because He didn’t give up. I tell my kids all the time that they were handpicked by God just for me so I know I have no choice but to see it through ~ even when I’m spinning around saying “Who are these kids and why are they calling me ‘Mom’?”
Girl, I hear ya! 🙂
Evidently we all have our not-so-shiny moments in motherhood, but overall isn’t it the best gig you’ve ever had!? Re: regurgitation: I will admit that God has taken care of me – EACH and EVERY time a child has thrown-up in the middle of the night (isn’t that always when it happens?)my husband has been home to help me. He takes the kid to bathe her and I take the bed to strip. I can handle a messy bed, but not so much the kid that completely reeks. Call me a bad mom, but if I had to take the kid, there would just be another mess to clean up : ) I know my limitations.
It *is* the best gig ever…it’s just that sometimes I feel so inadequate! Luckily, I’ve never met anyone who hasn’t felt similarly.
Better hang on to that man, Bev. My hubby would do puke patrol if he HAD to, but he hasn’t volunteered yet. 😉
What keeps me going? Maybe the fact that I can’t give them back?
Kidding!
Honestly, it’s walking in their rooms every night at bedtime and looking at their faces that gives me the strength and desire to go one more day. I seriously love them even when I’m seriously batty!
Funny how they transform into little angels when they sleep. LOL! I’ve never felt like quitting because my kids are bad–they aren’t!–but because I feel inadequate. But what’s new? I feel that way about everything!
Good words! What keeps me from giving up–their laughter is one of the things that does it. And food.
This is so genuine. I know what you mean — I still feel 13 at times and yet I’m running a household?!?! (or attempting to…)
I just posted on trying to ‘measure up’ as moms in honour of Mother’s Day too…